Signs of Change by Bryan M. Boutwell


I made this painting because I wanted to express what it felt like to get through Rehab while becoming a father. I needed to share what my life felt and looked like while I was in the throws of my drug addiction, and what it felt like and looked like after I became a father and got sober. Before my son’s arrival, my life was filled with a dark chaos that saturated my days. My company (although entertaining) consisted of other junkies, strippers, pimps, escorts, drug dealers, club owners, bar owners, gang bangers, and beautiful but crazy artists.

The silhouettes in the painting represent the before and after in my life. The naked woman represents the strippers, escorts, and the general seduction that the drug life offered. The silhouette of the father holding his son in the sunlight is what represents my life and love for being a sober dad. The hands are sign language spelling out: (The Invisible Priest In My… ) My son became my conscience while mine took some time to heal. His smile and his safety was a reminder that felt like some invisible and introspective priest helping me to stay sober. I wanted the light from the sky to really be emphasized, so I painted the rest of the painting in greys, blacks and heavy reds. I wanted the contrast between both lifestyles to be apparent. I left all of my pain and my love in this painting. I'm not a religious person, but the closest I've ever come to having an understanding of God has been through the gentleness I feel for my boy.

Bryan M. Boutwell

represented by

The McLoughlin

The McLoughlin Gallery is an approachable, inviting gallery with a social conscience. The mission of the gallery is to educate and intrigue by showcasing established mid-career and emerging contemporary artists whose work is unique, integrating bright, bold colors and conveying an emotional punch. Art work that makes you think. A portion of proceeds will benefit Glide and Stanford Breast Cancer Research. The McLoughlin Gallery is an independent enterprise not associated or connected with Stanford University and its activities are not ...

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